In this episode I talk a little bit about my dream and why my progress with turning it into a reality has been so slow.
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before the episode starts. I just like to give a massive thank you to my friend Francis Miska. He was actually the one who let me borrow his microphone and audio interface. So if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have been able to record these 1st 2 episodes off my little passion project. So a big, massive thank you, Francois NT's again. You were the catalyst thio this whole freakin things Charlotte seem up our thanks Georgia Farm to Dakota Kartal. My name is his Ron Alban, and welcome to To Passion Project. It's a Passion project is appalled cost aimed at those people who are wanting to take that first step towards making it happen. Thank you so much for tuning in. And I hope you enjoy the show. Honestly, man, I never thought that recording a podcast would be this hard. This is probably my 50th take off tonight. Just recording the first couple of sentences. So, Frick, this is pretty hard man. Anyway, the dream that I was alluding to you in my previous episode the dream that I quit my job in order to chase. If you don't have enough time to listen to the end off this episode. I'll give it to you now. My dream is to become a pilot. A commercial pilot. Yahoo A cool yet one of those. Yeah. Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. This is your captain. His room speaking. Welcome aboard his airways flight number 123 If you look out to the left off the aircraft, you will see a wing or whatever it is that people see to the left of the aircraft. Yeah, the dream. I think it would have started when I was a young boy. I had this VHS tape and it was a documentary off all these, like old school warplanes in in commercial airliners and things like that. I think that's what sort of sort of I think that's what sort of planted the seat in my mind. Thank you. No recording is frickin I wasn't anticipating this anyway. Um, the plan, originally out of high school, was Thio enroll into a flight training provider. My parents were sort of reluctant at letting me pursue that path out. Right, because the training provider it wasn't a it wasn't a degree, and I think my parents dream for me at that time. was to graduate from university and be kept and awarded a bachelor's degree. Yes, so like everyone else who is unsure as to what they should enroll themselves into, I enrolled myself into a business degree. I graduated with a degree in locking and commercial law, and that's what I did. That's what I dedicated around three years off my life. It's awards, and I sort of let that over ride this initial dream that I had for myself. So around halfway through the degree, it was, you know, just one of those normal routine days I was studying in the library. Um, I had some tests coming up, some exams coming up. I went home. I went home like every other normal day. My dad and mom greeted me. They ask how my day was and I was a year. You know, it's good, but for some reason or another, this one day that was just an ordinary day. I snapped, and I had an argument with my parents. After my dad asked me how my day was, I was like, you know, man, might they were shit and it was because of you guys, but they shit because I'm a university pursuing you know, this frickin degree that I don't even want to do in the first place? I'm feeling the way I'm feeling because off you I'm feeling the way I'm feeling because you guys have forced me into this degree that I don't even want to do in the first place, man. And that was one of the toughest conversations that I've ever had with my parents. We had a pretty big fight. I was chucking some pretty low blows men. I was talking all this smack about how my parents moved from the Philippines to New Zealand in order to give us, you know, better chances, better opportunities, Thio do what we want to do with our lives in terms off a career. And I was like, Man, what was the point of you guys coming here if I don't even have the chance to do what I want to do If I don't even have the chance to chase what I want to chase that was yet That was a damn hard conversation to have with him at the time. My sister was in her second to last year of high school. I think she would have bean. So I told my parents I was like, Man, if you guys forced her into something that she doesn't want to do, not only have you failed me, but you've also failed her as well. And that's not something that I wanted my sister to have to deal with. I don't want her to have toe get halfway through a degree and to have a fight with our parents about how miserable she was feeling because of them. Do you know what I mean? Yeah, it's words. The end of the conversation. I could see that. You know, he was just getting tired of this bickering back and forth between him and myself. So, uh, he was just like, you know what? If you're feeling this crappy about it, just quit uni now and enroll into your flight school Smart. You know, if this is something you're so, um passionate about, this is something that you're willing thio fight us about and just go for it and do it. No, those weren't his words verbatim. I'm just, you know, summarizing it. It was quite a long time ago, but that's pretty much what he said. The reason why I didn't immediately involvement of flight school the day after we had that conversation was because I was already halfway through my degree. I was already halfway through and if I had just quit then I reckon I would have carried that mentality with me throughout the rest of my life. You know, if I had gotten halfway through some sort of undertaking or a goal or an action that I put that had set for myself, if I wasn't feeling it, if I was having a bad time with it, I would have just quit. And that's not something that I could have lived with myself if I had done. That's not something that I would let myself do today either. So I decided to bite the bullet and finish off the rest off my degree. I had a massive change in mindset that I needed to finish this in order. Thio pursue what I had in mind for myself. It was just one of the steps that I need to take for the bigger picture. So I finished my degree and I walked across that stage. I shook the vice chancellor's hand and honestly that was one of the most proud moments of my life. It was for my parents that I had done that. This was one of the reasons why they moved over here in the first place. Is that so? We could receive in education and receive an education? I did, Frank, Man. Like I said in that previous episode, I got this damn student loan that I'm still very, very worried about. Um, if anyone can, you know, help me out with that, You know, our mind. I'll flicking my bank account later on coasts. So, yeah, I finished my degree and I sort of settle my ass for the next few years. And by sitting on my ass, I mean, I was working. That job was kind of cool because I got to dress up wearing suits and I wore a tie every now and then, which I enjoy thoroughly. If there's one thing you should know about me is that I really, really, really like suiting up. I feel like every time I put on a suit, I'm like, putting on like, you know, what's a what's it called? A frickin like armor? Yeah, I feel like I'm putting on armor and I'm getting ready for war when I put on my boots and things like that, Um, it's just something dumb that I that I put myself. It's a dumb mind frame that I put myself into in a register for work. I feel like I'm going to war anyway. I put off pursuing my dream for a very long time, and the only thing that I can attributes that, too, is because I was scared. I was afraid, toe actually take my own life into my own hands and to direct it and to steer it into where I wanted it to go. I guess there was a sense off comfort when you know someone tells you that you should do this and you should do that because at least when someone tells you to go somewhere or do something, you know, it's sit like let's sit, for example. I was told to go to university. I went to University University, had this whole timetable when things like that, but taking taking it into my own hands, I think was a very, very daunting task for me to do because it is not something that I had previously done before taking, you know, making my decisions and owning them and taking responsibility for them. I think taking responsibility for the decisions that you make is probably one of the most scary things to do. That's the thing off nightmares and hand like the consequences that you face. You're only facing them because you put yourself there. And I think I was just very reluctant to do that to myself. I wasn't yet ready. I wasn't yet mature enough. Thio. Take it by the horns and to just stricken ride the bull, man. I was just coming up with all these all these excuses. I was just procrastinating and putting it off, and I just got sick of it, man. So one day I e mailed an aero club and I was like, Hey, look, I'm keen to come for a trial flight and see what your training facilities like. They go back to me in a few hours and I was okay, and that was pretty quick. So, you know, I shouted about shout outs about how much of that have Bean would've been around $300 or something just for Frick? An introductory flight, which was pretty freakin amazing. I remember the flight instructor. He took me up and the second V Ah, the second we took off, I was like, for her. You probably got the most amazing job in the world. And he was like, huh? Yeah, that's worked. So which is kind of funny, because the way he viewed his job, which I thought was amazing, was the way that I viewed my job, which wasn't so amazing. So, you know, he just said it so nonchalantly he was again. This is all right. Anyway, I'm we landed and I had the best time of my life. I was pretty freakin sure that this is what I wanted to do with my life. So after the flight, a couple of days later, I had actually e mailed the club again, and I was like, Hey, thanks so much for the introductory flight. I am very keen on enrolling myself into the PPL. The professional pilots last press professional, sir. Then goes to Charlotte. A pilot PPL means private pilot's license. They didn't end up replying to me for some reason, so I never bought bothered following up. I was like, man, if these guys and keen to have me than I am keen to be there, so yeah, again, I came up with another excuse. I was like, You know what? This flight thing maybe might not be for me if this flight school didn't even reply to my inquiry off enrolling. So again, I was like, Dang like, here we go, another cycle off another herd, or I'm gonna let this, you know, get get the better of me. So again, I put it off for another couple of months. So anyway, these adds sort of started popping up on Facebook about learning how to fly in the Philippines. And that wasn't something I had considered to do toe move to another country in order to learn how to fly. I mean, I'll tear. Oh, man, this is home brother. Like I'm I'm a Kiwi man. If I were to move anywhere overseas, the land off the long, white cloud is where I would I want to be at the end of the day, 100% New Zealand is home. Say these ads started popping up, and I was like, You know what? Maybe so I clicked on the link and one of the requirements are not one of them. There were three main requirements that you needed to meet in order to be considered for the the what would you call it? The cadet ship. The first requirement was that you needed to be a holder off a Philippine passport. The second requirement was that you needed to be a holder off a university degree. And the third main requirement was that you needed to be ableto understand, read and write English. So I had the second and third requirements. I had Philippine possible. I didn't cause I was born here in New Zealand. I'm not a Filipino citizen. So I looked into getting myself a Filipino citizenship. I jumped onto the website to see what I needed to do in orderto be issued a Filipino passport. So I did this and I did that and actually went to the embassy in Wellington, which is where the Philippine Embassy is located in New Zealand. Huh? Is there a funny man? Because Filipinos, they usually want to leave the Philippines and move away from the place. I was the only dude who had an application t get into that into the country man. So it actually got Percy is quite fuss. Um, so as you can sell, probably I ended up getting that Filipino passport. You can probably see where this is going. So part of the dream that I have of becoming commercial pilot is to move to my motherland, the Philippines. I I'm moving to the brigand Philippines in order to pursue this dream. Uh, yeah, Like I said, not many people move into this country. A majority of its inhabitants move out. That's why we've got this fricking thing called the O F W, which is the overseas Filipino worker. Ah, And when you fly into the Philippines, there's actually a line dedicated Thio What they call like balik bayan and O f w balik bayan means like returning countrymen. So there's a whole queue in the airports for this category off people. Or if that we use and balik buy ins so man like, yeah, part of this dream entails me moving into this country. I can't really call it a foreign country because I'm Filipino. But, um, it is a foreign country to me because I grew up pretty Western. Westernized I should see. I don't know what it's like. Thio live there. Eikenberry Lee, speak the language. Nandita hoping on the knock. Better unlock a intending a monocle. I was born here, but I can understand the language. Speaking at there was a different story. Um, so yet to fold twofold. What would you call it? Two components off. The move to the Philippines is number one. I am pursuing the stream and number two I am gonna be learning about my culture. And my culture is something that I am very proud off being a Filipino born in New Zealand. Um, it's Yeah, it's a very, very big part off who I am as a person. So the people of New Zealand, the indigenous malady, they are called the tongue that's off in Iowa. Tongue, That's a fin war means the people off the land. The national anthem of the Philippines is looping in Iran, which means the chosen friend. So I was like, I was I was really reflecting on that. And if you put together looping honey, wrong and turn that aff Inna, what you get is the people off the chosen hand, and I thought that was pretty The laughter that is really cool. So check this, though. At work on before I left. Ah, yeah, before I left, it was it was on my birthday on my 25th birthday. My colleagues, it actually got together and got me a birthday present. What they got for me was a a ah Poonam you Nicholas porno movies Green Stone. And it's considered Tana In the multi culture, it's online means treasure. So they gave me this Greenstone Nicolas. And the only thing that I could think about was that it was such an honor and the privilege to be the first recipient of that tomah to be the first stored over it. So it was the symbol. It was a hate okey, which is was like a digging tool, a cutting tool. It was the expression I considered it, the expression off the bond between the origin off my blood and the land that I was born in Yemen. I African love this country, man. There's this comedian. I forget his name. So I con created him. But he had this little sketch and he was like, If you're a Kiwi overseas and you're lost, there is like a distress signal that every Kiwi has. So if you're lost oh, you got to do is sing t reminding ah e we Tar Toto way If you're lucky, you'll know how to songwriters. Just say to Tito, mind that you'II a kiwi and they'll let you know what that means. It's one of those if you know, you know, So shut out. So my torture New Zealanders man order Broadus Order Brad Earth, do the mahi and get the treat sort of ones. So mmm, that I'm trying to say is that if you've got a dream, go out there and make it happen. Start at a level that's easy until it's easy for you to do it at any level. You know, Mikey is very good. They've already, like, trademark one of the most iconic phrases ever like to just do it. That's that's all it is. Men is to just do it. So if there's a dream that you are wanting to pursue, if there's anything holding you back from making that a reality like not like, do not let anything get in your way be mongrel be, be hungry, be. Let it be the first thing you think about when you wake up in the last thing that you think about before you go to sleep. I want it to happen so much that it's all you talk about. One thing it's that happened so much that he started frickin podcast about it, which is what I have done. So, yeah, Thank you again for your patience and for listening to me rambling on about this bullshit. I really, really appreciate you all for the support that you've given me in this journey off recording my thoughts and in the four metal podcasts once again, thank you so much for tuning in on dhe. Cocky they are not.